My Life As ~An Intuitive Channel

Transformation Can Only Flower When We Accept All That Life Brings With An Open Heart
My Life As ~

An Intuitive Channel

My Awakening

In 1974, as I sat at the dining room table alone in the home of my boyfriend’s family something odd happened.  While everyone was out running errands, I took a shower put some clothes in for washing and borrowed his mothers robe.  I decided to write a letter to my mother.  As I began writing with my back to the kitchen I heard cabinet doors banging and pots clanging.  A bit frightened, I turned around only to find nothing was disturbed. The doors were closed and there were no pots on the floor, as my mind envisioned.

Confused, I continued with my letter writing until it happened once again.  With that, I immediately stopped writing and left the Dining room.

Home At Last

When they arrived I told them of the peculiar incident I experienced, adding that perhaps since this was Florida, a large snake had found its way into the cabinets.

I was surprised at their behavior, as they began to roar with laughter.  I starred in awe.  When they finally controlled themselves, my boyfriend’s father explained how his wife did Automatic writing – a form of Channeling messages from Spirit.  He further explained, she did this writing in the same chair I sat in, wearing the same bathrobe. I had never heard of Channeling, this incident was my First experience, something I would not fully understand for many years to come.

I began taking a closer look at her books and discovered she had so many on the subject.  Titles such as, Seth Speaks by Jane Roberts, a Clear Channel; Ruth Montgomery, who Channeled through Automatic writing.

I was Hooked.

Something deep in my Soul Awakened.  I would much later in my life that this event was My Pathfinder.  Something within my Soul remembered the many past lives I lived as a Clear Channel.

A Path On Hold

After my stay I returned to NJ only to learn that my brother George was doing poorly, his drug habit had worsened.  For months after my return, I Intuitively felt that someone close was going to die.  No names were given, but this feeling of dread was intense.

One October day in 1974, months after the feelings began I came home to find my brother passed out at the bottom of the stairs from an overdose.  I called for an ambulance, there were no 9.1.1. call centers then.  George was taken to the hospital in time to save his Life.  Relieved that it wasn’t my brother I needed to worry about, convinced that this feeling of dread would soon pass.

It Did Not…

The Feeling Continued…

December of that same year, four days after George’s 20th birthday – we lost My brother.  George died of a drug overdose, alone in his apartment.

I, his Big sister was not there to protect him that dreadful night.

Filled with guilt, blamed by my grieving mother, coupled with my anger at God, I abandoned My gifts.  Intuitively knowing someone was going to transition to the other side, and not knowing who, was more than I could bare.  I angrily spoke to God, insisting that from this point on, I did not wish these Gifts any longer.  It was too hard!

Life’s Twists

In 2003, fifteen years ago, I began to feel a strong pull to reconnect with my Spiritual Journey.  At that point we were living in South Carolina, just miles from where my brother, myself and our Mother would vacation for two weeks each summer.  We, along with Cousins, Aunts and Uncles, vacationed on Folly Beach.  A beautiful unspoiled beach to be spoiled by the love of family!

They have since passed, and Hurricane Hugo has taken the house we shared each summer, but nothing can take those beautiful memories. 

Ironically, one of my first Spiritual assignments in South Carolina, was to help Aunt Effie into the Light. She had transitioned many years prior, but remained as an Earth Bound Spirit, as her anger had kept her from going to the Light so many years ago!  She and I talked like old friends, mostly at the kitchen window of my home.

The perfect place, her Love of Family and Friends was shown each day through her Southern cooking!

I spoke of her loved ones still waiting for her to cross, and after a few days she was ready to join her family.

The Gift Of Hypnotherapy

During a session with Hypnotherapist I learned my brother had not gone to the Light either.  He had actually remained with me all these many years.  I asked the therapist, how was it that I could I not feel him?  She replied that his energy was so familiar to me, that I never felt any change.

One day in 2007, less than a month after I learned George was with me, he began to communicate with me.  During our conversation, asking if he was ready to enter the Light, I had a shocking realization, he was Not aware he had passed and began to Sob.  We were both crying, as I tried to comfort him.  During our talk I felt Aunt Effie’s energy, she was there waiting for him in the Light.  As I was not Clairvoyant at the time, I could not see her, but I felt her loving presence.

I asked George if he could see her, and if so, it was time for him to go to her.  I assured him she was there to comfort him during his transition, and that we both loved him, and I would see him again.

In An Instant

He was gone, he joined Aunt Effie, and the energy of My brother George was gone.  His l absence was intensely felt!

A few years ago I discovered George was one of my Guardian Angels.  While it is not common for a deceased Loved One to transition to this State after passing, it does happen.  The unexpected Joy of connecting with George in this way, was a Joy to my eternally grateful Heart. 

George has moved on and doing amazing Healing work on the other side, assisting others.  He still checks in from time to time, often using a specific song that we share, to let me know he is here!

One day sent me a thank you through a Medium friend of mine.  He repeated what I had heard, but was skeptical of.  George explained that the work we do for our Soul Growth here in the physical, assists Our deceased loved ones on the other side.

How Beautiful is that!!!

My Spiritual Studies

I was told by several that I was a Channel, they saw several past lives where I connected Angels, lives that did not end well.  Much suffering, harm and death befell upon me and those I taught.  Betrayal by other peers, was often the case.  This suffering and death happened in so many lifetimes that fear had attached to my Soul, causing me to avoid my Gifts for Lifetimes.

Fear I felt so intensely even in this Lifetime!  The comfort of my Souls secret, so neatly tucked away, was now exposed.  Fear at a Soul level, felt as if I was living in the skin of another for protection, and having this protective veil removed!  

With Spirits Guidance, leading me to the perfect Teachers and Healers I was able to Trust my Truth, and Embrace my Gift as a Channel.  Embracing Who you are, Who you are destined to be, was more freeing than I could have ever imagined.

A New Beginning

As a commercial Interior Designer for over 30 years, this was an unexpected surprise, which I now fully embrace. 

When I re-started my ‘Spiritual Journey,’ with constant thoughts of “What’s My path” – What’s My purpose” – always questioning Spirit and feeling I was not receiving advice.  I intensely read Books, Meditated, continued my Studies with Spiritual Healers and Teachers, unaware there was a plan!

As it began to unfold I was able to embrace the Faith I needed, the Faith in their Guidance, the Faith in Myself.  My husband and I with Divine Faith moved across country to Arizona, found the perfect home to renovate, sold our Southern home in two weeks.

Yes, they had a plan.

As my new life continues to unfold, I see my Life’s Journey, with all its Joys, Hardships and Lessons has taught me much about My Courage – My Strength.  This gained Wisdom helped me recognize the Gifts they brought to My Soul!  I Wish to share My Journey – As we embark together on a Soulful Journey through the Bumps and Joys of Life.

Soul Shifts to Unveil – Our true Potential, Our Core Essence, Our Soul at Peace.

Our Transformation – Our Spiritual Awakening – Awaits!

Peace and Blessings, Carol